Different New Year

The year came by so fast,
tons of memories were made.
when everything was supposed to be a blast,
your presence started to fade.

Every day I started wondering,
if I really was something
to you when you left me hanging,
from the times we used to be laughing.

Smiles that turned into frowns,
ups that turned into downs,
tears of joy turned into pain,
bright sunlight turned into unbearable rain.

Now all I wish is a different new year,
where I won't have to lay down the tears.
Because now I know my worth,
and my life would be happy without being hurt.

Quote of the Week

"It's never too late to be whoever you want to be." -F. Scott Fitzgerald

Quote of the week

"Keep moving forward." -Meet The Robinsons

The Set Up

When I was all alone and wishing
to meet a guy who is loving
who will be there to protect and help me
whenever I'm lost and crazy

Then all of a sudden I met you
who looked and felt very true
telling me I'm the best thing you ever had
saying those precious words makes me glad

Without a notice our story ended
after telling me that you only pretended
to love me and served it as a trap
making me feel as if I'm a piece of crap

you tricked me got me into this maze
where I believe in every single gaze
who are you to make this kind of set up
can't believe I loved a guy who can't even grow up

Quote of the Week

"Growing up means changing for the better things in life."

Questions

For every teardrop and smile
for every inch and mile
I ask a lot of things to myself
I want to search and ask for help

Wondering why do I regret this
and till now I cant forget your kisses
Seeking for the love we used to feel

tracing the pattern on how to heal

Like a ghost who suddenly appears
whenever I remember the fear
of losing you when it's already done
and it tears me up to think that you're gone

Questions that bothers my head

especially my heart that slowly shreds

into pieces for not knowing the answers

when I never even mattered 

Tired Heart

I'll do everything just for you,
I'll risk my life if it's the right thing to do.
Sacrificing my time and energy,
just to be appreciated for everything

Never said that you are mean,
when there are times that you're in between.
Made you smile when you are pissed,
but when it comes to me I'll just clench my fist.

For every effort that I gave,
just for me not to be replaced.
Gave what you needed just to being noticed,
yet still you're not focused.

Now I'm having a tired heart,
because of being dumb instead of being smart.
One day if I ever be gone,
it's because you've done me wrong.

Cold December

Christmas is around the corner,

so does my heart who needs an armor.

Feelings that used to be warm,

now it's too cold like there's a storm.

Looking back at spring,

where we used to be each other's fated red string.

At times where it's still summer,

our days were full of colors.

During autumn things started to change,

the way you say I love you sounds strange.

Words of promises that keeps on being broken,

and my every part of my heart is aching.

Relationship that turns into a cold December,

killing me inside that makes me surrender.

Will your ever change like an autumn,

when you'll get to save me from the bottom.

Quote of the Week

"Accept the past, enjoy the present, and plan for the future."

Worst Mistake

From happy memories,
into an unsuspected enemy.
Leaving me with scars and bruises,
slowly killing me with your excuses.

I loved you with all of my heart,
but you ripped my soul apart.
Ever since the day you've been gone,
I ask myself what have I done.

As I move on you came back,
after you gave me too much cracks.
You think I'll forgive you but you're wrong,
I'll never listen again to your favorite song.

Meeting you was the worst mistake,
still, thank you for the heartache.
because now you made me stronger,
knowing that I deserve someone better.

Fake Love

Looking back at the days,
when I wasn't yet replaced.
Memories that I still bring back,
listening to our favorite track.

Dreams that we used to have,
now it's just a piece of trash.
Promises that are now blurred,
still can't believe from the words I've heard.

After everything we've been through,
never knew that your feeling were never true.
Should have realized it before,
my tears start to pour.

Sometimes I even wonder,
was I loved because you were bored.
This relationship is a nightmare,
because all this time you never cared,