Assumed

For the times I thought it was special,
expecting that it could have a potential.
After you said that you appreciate me,
and said that you kind of like me.

Trying to make myself look better,
even ending up giving you a random letter.
Cheering you up when you are down,
making goofy faces to erase that frown.

Then one day I heard that it was a joke,
confusion started the moment you spoke.
Explaining the situation you made,
and now all I want is to fade.

Should have never assumed at all,
making myself look so small.
Because I thought the feelings I had,
would never make me sad.

Quote of the Week

"Everything will be fine, just smile and stay positive."

Healing Time

Yesterday I used to be your lover,
now i'm just a stranger because it's over.
Can't believe everything has ended,
this reality is seriously unexpected.

We had a long journey together,
hoping that our relationship will be forever.
Unfortunately, everything's done
still confused ever since you're gone

Some guys try to mend my heart
yet I still cry and my life starts to fall apart.
Everything will never be the same,
knowing that I should be the one to blame

Hoping that one day my heart will be healed,
being able to survive in this battlefield.
Realizing that it's easier to accept and start smiling,
instead of denying and end up crying.

Your Shadow

Ever since the day we have met,
there are things that I never knew I'll regret
the fact that loving you is ridiculous,
and expecting the same is ambitious,

A day wouldn't be good without hearing your name,
making me smile though it sounds lame.
As time passes by so fast,
things changed but my feelings were still vast.

Should've thought that you'll be different one day,
now there's nothing left to say.
Starting to be ignorant and cold,
still, I held on to the words you told.

Till now I'm afraid of losing you even if it's a pain,
can't even choose who'll decide if it's the heart or the brain.
Maybe I was just born to be your shadow,
thinking that one day in the end, I will be the one who you will follow.

Wrong Move

every minute of the day

I always try to make your sadness away

every second that we're together

wanting it to last till forever

we could've been different than the rest

but you left me when I could've been your best

all the efforts and patience that I made

you tore me apart and ignore the things I've said

How could you say that you'll never leave me

when you never tried and never understood me

Should've accepted that I'll never be perfect for you

because I should've realized before that I'm too good for you

Sad February

This month was supposed to be fun,
but my heart became numb.
Walking alone under the sun,
realized that letting you go made me dumb.

Realizing that you're not by my side,
slowly kills me inside.
Memories living in my head,
planned dreams are already dead.

Heartbreaks can't seem to be fixed,
whenever sadness and pain starts to get mixed.
Will time help me to overcome,
from the damage and becoming undone.

Hoping that my life would be complete,
and days start to taste sweet.
Praying my scars will start to heal,
and loving myself would make things real.

Let Me Understand

Everytime I see you cry,
you keep insisting that you are fine.
Everytime you tell a lie,
you always say the same line.

How will I ever know,
if you don't want to show?
How will I ever see,
if you're not looking at me?

Doing these actions makes me mad,
but I always end up being sad.
Creating these issues makes me confused,
was I loved or was I used.

Know that I will always be at your side,
Willing to do everything and be your guide.
I will never let go of your hand,
so please let me understand.